In these days I rise to take my place
Another step in this Love Following I do
There is trembling and a sense of awe
But also mysterious peace and a sense of right.
In my mind I walk through the faith-hall of my mentors
Remembering their teachings, the way they walked
Their history has marked me, readied me
And now it´s my turn to join in their history-making.
I yearn to honor the old but embrace the new
To learn from the past but discern the times of today & tomorrow
To give myself as a bridge between generations,
Striving to unite those playing in the same game.
I am guarding my heart and am desperate to hear
The Voice of all voices in my travellings
I am creating the space to find and feed on
The Presence that will sustain me on this path.
I ponder my Life Messages which have accumulated
And now they eagerly spill out into my words, my life
I am eager for convergence of lessons & gifting
I am longing for symmetry between the inward & outward life.
I hunger to steward my gifts from the King
As I work joyfully in this corner of His kingdom, His vineyard
Yet I never want to lose touch with my Dark Side
That I will always have need to be humble & compassionate.
I desire to be real and transparent and relevant
To weep an honest spirituality to this generation
To, in my own genuine need & through a sense of courage,
Question the common, do the unexpected, say something
I am singing the song that draws nations to Him
That unleashes the Springs of Life
Flooding the deserts, cascading through mountains
Uniting the ones who believe.
Today I still work hard – but I rest more
I want to laugh more, delight more, explore more
I want to work smarter so there is time for wildflowers -
And walking and music and coffee and secrets.
I am sketching the background for my children’s journey
Adding colour and depth and companionship to my husband’s
And they are amazing me and slaying me with their beauty
As they contribute to my life-canvas & pilgrimage.
Not too long ago I ran on passion & energy & vision
Today they are very much present – but they look different.
In my yesterdays I said Yes too often & to many of the wrong things.
I am learning that No can mean Yes - to something better.
There were some yesterdays of valleys & burnout
There is history of whirlwinds of activity for many good causes
There are snapshots of fatigue, of sadness, of losing the joy –
And even worse - losing myself and my soul.
Today I am just realistically content to be me - with Him.
Today there is a huge sense of privilege, of salvation, of calling.
Today I am free to lead as myself – and from my soul.
Today I am admiring His mysterious, redemptive movement in my leadership…
…and in this step toward legacy
…in this Love Following I do.